Light Alchemist Alexa Person details how her spiritual development helped her navigate her toxic third marriage in THE ZERO POINT: AHY AND THE DIVINE MATRIX.
The book follows her meeting the man she refers to from the start as her “next ex-husband” through their courtship, marriage, and the marriage unraveling as she experiences visions and visitations from dead relatives, beings of light, and star beings who “calibrate” her.
Because her journey is chronological, so is the narrative. But because it is experiential, that makes the structure difficult. The author carefully details her experiences, providing sketches and visual representations of the beings she encounters and their interactions. She offers additional footnotes and bibliographical material, and is honest about how these visitations and experiences made her feel. She reveals how higher vibrations even changed her physical features, at least to her husband and when she looked into a specific mirror. Reading the piece is a bit like following the author into an esoteric jungle, and having to trust that she can lead all the way through.
What is difficult to reconcile is why Person enters a relationship she knows from the start won’t work, and how she treats her children and her husband’s toddler. She regularly puts her husband’s demands over her own children’s needs, her visitations and meditations over her own children’s needs, and then wonders why they are unhappy. All of these experiences of transcended love and understanding don’t extend to her own children. She would rather scrabble for crumbs of attention from her cold and distant husband. She resents the time her husband spends with the young child he had with another woman shortly before they got together. Yet she sells her own home and allows him to have all their assets in his name. She allows controlling and isolating behavior, even as she dives more deeply into her spiritual work. Her spiritual life replaces and often interferes with her physical life.
What remains unexplained is why these beings of light and guides, who supposedly want ultimate love and the best for their human charges, give her vague words about choices and destiny instead of practical tools to help guide her out of the toxicity or to help both herself and her children. Even when Person finally decides to divorce, she puts up with and continues to go back for more bad treatment by her husband.
Her astral experiences will be of interest to those who study star beings, sacred geometry, and Akashic work. However, ultimately, Alexa Person’s memoir THE ZERO POINT reads as using spirituality as an apologia for entering and remaining too long in a toxic relationship.
~Eva Schegulla for IndieReader